I’m not mad, just severely annoyed. This may be a Mandi Thing where people don’t see the difference but I do; I’m annoyed.  E has said/done/not done a few things today that have just gotten to nme. I don’t even want to get into what they were because it’s nothing to get upset or mad about, I’m just peeved.  The good thing about being annoyed is the frustration makes for a great 45 minute cardio workout.

Work has also been a lot of mental stress… I went from being bottom of the totem pole at work with a boss who was the anti-Christ and coworker I wanted to strangle to being in charge of operations and with a boss who thinks I walk on water.  Of course with the new position and new expectations comes me working my ass off way harder.  I think for this reason I am going to go out to Milwaukee for Nikki’s Halloween party.  I need to get away from Orlando, seriously.

I’ve decided that my mantra in life is “the best laid plans of mice and men often go astray.” I first learned it in English class when we were required to read Steinbeck’s Of Mice and Men (along with the rest of America).  The quote though, is from a Robert Burns poem, To a Mouse, many people don’t know that so there is your bit of knowledge for the day.

I think it’s a depressing mantra to have, but I find myself thinking it or saying it whenever someone talks about something I think is premature in nature to plan out.  I’ve grown negative. E teases me that I’m dark and twisty and have the same issues Meredith has, which, although I’m obsessed with that show, it is also rather an insult since she does (or at least did, they were supposedly all fix at the end of last season) have serious issues.

The point the great Robert Burns is trying to make is that anything going in a good direction; anything you have planned, could totally kick you in the ass and turn your world upside down. Just an FYI type of warning on life.  Can’t really live life without planning though, and if you don’t trust the planning then you really can’t do anything.  How do I get over this?  Not so sure since I’m not a character on a television show and my issues can’t be fixed in a two hour season finale.